i often think about what my life would be like if my father didn't pass away suddenly of carbon monoxide poisoning when i was only 9 years old.
my emotions go from sadness to flat out anger that i grew up without a dad.
it ticks me off when people say that i'm stronger because of it - that is hardly the case.
i can't even type this stupid post without crying. pretty strong huh?
it's not fair that he was taken away from me when i was so young. i'm selfish in that respect. i want his larger than life personality around me, i want a dad.
i just know it would have been so much easier for me if he was around for me growing up. it was hard on my mom, all the sacrifices she made.
i think about him every.
single.
day.
especially today.
i miss you dad.
